Remember my new year resolution post?the very cheesy- most probably i will not achieve- one?(except for no.1,4 and 7) guess what, i lied. so, i started the year with lies, not the best of starts but i was just being optimistic that things will change. silly me. which means this is not what i really wanna see happening this year although i don't mind all that happening. . but, what i really really really want is effing freedom!!!

i had to turn down another date request from thanes. one of these days she is gonna grow tired of the whole she calling me out and me having to say no cycle that she is gonna stop trying. her sem exam has just finished and she wanted us to go out before my new sem starts because it will be even more impossible then. first i asked the lady with the iron fist. and she said no. haha. no surprise there. she didn't even bother thinking that i only went out once with my friends this whole sem break i got. (my parents are a lil weird as in they only let me go out with this certain friend and not the others) this is how a typical me asking permission conversation goes:

me: ma..
the lady: ?
me: ma...ma...
the lady: ???
me: can i go out with thanes? (this sentence is usually only half finished, as soon as the word out is heard the spontaneuos reply can be heard)
the lady: NO!
me: but...
the lady: NO, and its final.
me: i don't care, i am going.
the lady: oh, so even if i say no you will stil go.
me: yes!
the lady: fine, ask my silent partner, if he lets then you can go.
me: seething with rage and anger.

and ya i did ask the silent partner, he had the courtesy to ask the what, why and how's. and then when i asked can or not. he was silent and silent throughout. ha ha, my life is so funny i feel like crying. and to think that i am turning 21 this year. the situation is even more stomach ache inducing laughter funny. whoever said age is but a number is so right. i am still treated like a 12 year old. heck, even 12 year old nowadays have more freedom then i do.

the other incident i want freedom from is when i use the com. (this is the main reason i wanted a laptop) the com, eventhough its in the study room its visible when u enter the room. so what ever i am doing can be seen. and i am so bored with all the "what are you doing"crap. come on la you can see very clearly that i am 'reading my mail, playing pet society, reading manga, watching movie, or reading flog (food blog)' why want to ask somemore? why god why???????? and this happens every single time k.

and most of all i want to go far far far away from this house. it doesn't feel like home anymore.